Sadfaic

I bother Albert =( (sometimes)

My beloved Char and stuff

So yesterday I woke up to a dead Char. Not fun. At all. I cried during my whole morning routine, and crying just makes everything harder. I only had him for six years, but we don’t really know how old he was. If he really was only 7 or 8, then he died prematurely since their expected lifespan is 13 years. The oldest recorded was 29. Can you imagine that? Having someone for nearly 30 years and then they just die. But he acted as if he was too old, he stopped eating =/ Either way.. he’s gone now, and I miss him a lot. We went through a lot. He gave Caity a nice face scar, and I have a nice scar on my arm xD and he gave me a badly infected thumb one time. And I used to be covered in scratches from him. He was quite aggressive towards me. We dug a grave for him yesterday. I dug half and Daddy dug half. He didn’t take as long as me to do the second half, but I was using the wrong shovel =|

It’s time to go to class and I’m not finished yet, gr.

Haha, it’s actually today.

So today was my second day of TR classes. I don’t like going over the macro homework as a class. I don’t like participating in a class unless I am sure of my answer. And yea… I don’t know squat about the economy. The people in my class, at least four, seem to actually know about this stuff and it’s a bit intimidating as far as I’m concerned. There’s also a class right before ours and it’s an old guy, and the older teachers like to go over their allocated time. That is annoying.

Digi was fine. We started on chapter 2, so we went back to chapter 1. Of course… I wasn’t really listening cause it wasn’t info that actually mattered. I drew horsey stuff, and the one thing was an awesome My Little Pony Tales head. After that! we went back to converting between the different number systems… what a bore =|

My other posts don’t include this other thing that is bothering me right now. I mean. I dunno, maybe it did but whatever. Anyway. I don’t really feel all that comfortable.  I feel kinda awkward everywhere, and I still don’t really have friends. Tony’s not in any of my classes now. I saw him standing outside the school store though, talking to some girl I’ve never seen. He does that, I suppose. Attract girls. But yea, he just talks and seems detached, you know, like you should be with friends. I waved, and he waved back, and I continued going to class. It’s been very cold too, below freezing every day. I had a hard time getting myself to get my books. And I spent all of my money on them too, but that’s what happens when you get new books from the school’s bookstore.

Which brings me to my next dilemma, I only am comfortable depositing checks and money in the ATM, and I’m too.. uncomfortable to do it any other way by myself. So.. I’m stuck with having only $14 for now I guess. I need to get gas soon though.

I’ve been feeling kinda down since Albert left, and I thought that once I started classes again, I’d get out of that slump, but it hasn’t seemed to happen yet, unfortunately. I also have to get used to my new times. I have a lunch time dilemma  cause of my odd classes and cause I don’t really like taking lunch and stuff… nerrr.

Wednesday, woooo.

So today I had my Monday classes again. Uhm… It went well. in terms of classes. Again. Ha. I don’t really remember anything memorable. Oh. uhm. In Network Analysis, I drew. Andddd she apparently includes MC in her PP? What the poo D: That’s all I have to say.

Second day

So today was my second day and the second half of my classes. They were okie dokie. My first class of Macroeconomics was nothing unusual. The teacher talks a lot. It makes it hard to take notes. He uses powerpoints too, yuck. He kept looking in my general direction, and it kind of bothered me! He has humor though, yay for not quite boring.

My second class was Digital Electronics I, with my teacher from last year. The first thing we’re learning to do is to convert between decmial and binary, octal, and hexidecimal. Go me for already knowing the easiest of the three. We haven’t converted between binary and octal or binary and hex or octal and hex though. Josh ish in the class with me, but yet again, we’re in opposite sections. Oh well. I don’t even know if I mentioned Josh before xD But yea, so far it promises to be just as much fun as Intro to Circuit Analysis.

First Day of Spring Semester

So today was my first day back to college and the conclusion of winter break. I was slightly nervous just because I haven’t been there for a month, and wouldn’t you know, I should have renewed my ID the week before, oh well. There was a long line of people waiting to get in because we weren’t informed and at leas 2/3 had to get a sticker. Luckily, I was still early to class, and I found my two classes okie dokie.

My first class was Calc I, and we were actually locked out because the teacher apparently doesn’t have a key. He really should. He turned out to be a slightly tubby, Chinese guy named Mr. Wang. He likes to talk a lot but doesn’t speak English very well. Not so much in terms of words but in terms of pronunciation. I mean, sure, he constantly uses plural nouns and forgets prepositions and conjunctions, but when you say words that sound just like other, completely different words, it can be confusing. Especially when you say words that don’t sound like words! So, I’ll have to listen closely. Thankfully he’s really nice. He acknowledges he sucks at English, and he jokes around a bit, and he laughs. When he was going around asking us our name and what we do, though, he seemed to not want to listen to me, like he wanted to get away from me, cause he walked away before I finished. Maybe I just wasn’t talking fast enough. Whatever, lol. Anyway, our first class was more about not math than math. Or, as Mr. Wang pronounces it, mass. So far, the class seems to be okie dokie. People were saying it’s hard or something, but if we’re just teaching ourselves, I’ll do fine.

My second class was Network Analysis, a continuation of Intro to Circuit Analysis. This time we’re analyzing AC circuits instead of DC. Our classroom gets to be our lab room too. The teacher seems quite nice. She has an Indian sounding accent, but obviously, she could be something else. Her voice isn’t annoying, yay! And I can understand her just fine. She’s also nice and jokes around a bit. She doesn’t talk a lot, our first class was mostly actually course material, and she doesn’t use powerpoints, yay! I can’t really think of anything else to mention.

Uhm… yea. end!

My winter break

It feels as if my winter break.. went by in normal time, but the last week seemed rather fast. It was quite a dazed week. But..back to the beginning of the break.

My semester ended with my brother and future sister visiting for a week. It was really nice to get to spend so much time with both of them. I slept over my mom’s with them the majority of the week and saw our friends. Well, they’re only my friends with Eddie around. Otherwise, they’d just be people I know. Either way, it was very enjoyable. We even stayed overnight at Tony’s house and I found out that Tony’s girlfriend is one of my classmates that I actually have known for a while and get along with well. It kinda helped me see that hey, someone might actually like to have me around outside of school. Aimee’s an awesome person as far as I’m concerned, and she even shares a love of animals (though, surely not as deep as mine) which none of my other friends do. On the flip-side, I had a really hard time the last two days of their stay. I don’t really know if I was homesick or simply overwhelmed, but there was a lot of headache and crying. Marie gave me a whole 3 hours of talk time before I finally was stable.

Christmas wasn’t a big deal for me this year, mainly because I didn’t ask for anything, but I was hoping for something anyway. In the end I got $100 of Godiva chocolate (yummmmm) and an $8000 2006 PT Cruiser. Mommy may not be able to deal with his gift giving love, but I sure can. Having said that, I wouldn’t be able to deal with that if Albert were that way. So, I guess it’s just because it’s my dad, and he definitely does not need to play a double role, ew.

Christmas for my siblings went pretty well. I’m pretty sure I got the best deal though.

So after Christmas, Albert came over. Squeeeee~! Albert~ <3 I absolutely adore and love him if that weren’t apparent by now. And the week with him was majorly amazing. There were pretty much only two setbacks, and I think I’ll tell those first.  The first, more devastating one was the night the power went out. Daddy got all serious on us about him going to bed? He was all, so what’s the situation with you going to bed. And I’m just like… Uhmmm? There’s a problem? Should there be some sort of change? and he said no! And then he went on to say there’s a problem and how about -we- tell him what the problem is? We aren’t even aware there’s a problem, how are we supposed to confront you about some nonexistent problem?! It was very hard on me. I was shaken up throughout the following day. I felt like.. I wasn’t allowed to have a boyfriend, basically.. and I was worried that maybe Daddy’d force Albert home early. It wasn’t fair at all. We’re 18, we’ve been together for over 4 years. Why are we not allowed to snuggle and lay together? By this time in my dad and mom’s relationship, they were engaged, and my dad surely had sex before. I still haven’t. Gr! It’s very frustrating. The other downside is that we had to lug around Nathan whenever we went places. Now to the good! Well, obviously, I got to snuggleeeee and physically love Albert, which I hadn’t done since before I graduated high school. It’s rather tough not being able to do that kind of thing all the time, cause then I’d be able to not around Daddy and he’s stop making me feel like crap about it. And it was eventful for only a week. We beat Tales of Symphonia: Dawn of a New World for the Wii. I enjoyed it =) We also went to the movies and saw The Tale of Despereaux because we both wanted to see it and haven’t been to the movies in forever. That was also enjoyable ^^ I also was fully responsible for getting and taking Albert to the bus station, which was scary. And we got my car the day after I got Albert. The car proves to be much more sensible travelling for one who has more than 1.5 siblings. Try four. I can seat four now, and throwing someone in the back, while dangerous, is actually plausible now. But in the week of him being here, I believe we had no communication problems.

The week after Albert had to go home, which was the week before I started classes, was at first horrible, and then less horrible but rather empty. I played the original Pokémon games this past weekend, and that was fun though. What helped me through the week, was, of course, Albert. We were on the phone for hours upon hours, playing vijeogames together and webcammed a little too.

All in all, this was one of the most eventful and long breaks I’ve ever had.

Wow, memories.

So today’s Thanksgiving. Well. Here anyway. Albert’s was back in October :P Daddy’s making his awesome turkey dinner ness with all of our favorites. This year he bought a small platter of cookies that we’d get every Thanksgiving back when we hosted Thanksgiving dinner for the family. They aren’t -good- cookies really. It’s like.. how my dad would eat butter pecan ice cream, even though he hates pecans, because it was the kind his mom would eat. But yea. It was nostalgic having those again.

I had something to say… but then I forgot cause I was really upset about Crystal not talking to me. Oh well I suppose =/

In other news! I’ve been buying a lot of games, and I still have more I wanna get. Gr I don’t wanna get a job D: I wanna have a break to just enjoy myself and do nothing!

Oh yea, Caitlyn and Mary are back with mommy, yay! Caitlyn was being super cute and clingy. The kittens are much more growed up. Their ribs are forming into a v instead of a box, and they walk around all by themselves. Kaisai has turned emo for now, he’ll only play with his mom xD. Joy now plays with us! Yay.

Catsup

Sooooo…. it’s been a longer while. Like, a month! =D School is going very well. I have a 102% in English as of now. I won’t after this upcoming essay, but that’s okay, cause it ought to still be an A. In precalc I’m not doing so hot, I definitely have a C. Tomorrow I’m doing this… uhmmm…AMATYC test for EC though =D Circuit Analysis, is -really- circuit analysis xD We actually have to figure out where the electricity flows and figure out how fast and how much! It can be confusing. Luckily! I get what we’re doing. Speaking of which, I imagine I have an A in the class… I don’t recall how weighted things workkkkk so I don’t have it figured out. In programming! I imagine I have an A in that, since, we’ve only had two tests and the first one I got an A on.. I dunno about the second, we see them tomorrow.

Tony’s been missing class a number of times and it’s making me concerned. I asked him about it today and he said he’s not purposely doing it! That’s so sad =( He also said that he probably is failing English, and that makes me sad too xD;

Friday, October 24, 2008 @ 4:40 p.m. marks the day Pleasure gave birth to two kittens! The first kitten (which was born at that time xD) is a boy, and we named him Kaisai! That is sooooo fun to say! The second kitten was born after… 6? We’re surprised that she’s alive. We named her Joy =) I was kinda disappointed that Pleasure only had one kitten, cause I thought she’d have two. And then she had a kitten after we left! Yay! Mommy said we’re probably going to end up keeping both xD But they’re allllllll getting fixed ASAP.

Happy mommy with her babies, Kaisai and Joy.

So, where are the babies?!

Kaisai and Joy look just like their mommy!

Speaking of Mommy, her babies’ daddies are withholding her babies from her. It is sad. I miss Caitlyn =( Of the reasons I know, I think it’s really stupid that Rob would say they can’t be there because it’s unsanitary, and because Mary was going to a christian preschool. The place was even dirtier when he lived there, and at least a christian surrounding would positively influence them. I mean, the courts believe that it’s better for the children to be with a parent instead of at day care and yet, what is Rob doing?! Sending them to day care! Another thing is that both Rob and Mary Ann are not physically fit to keep them under control. Gr =( I don’t really know what Daddy’s problem is. I get that he doesn’t want Lisa and Nathan to be alone at home. I get that he doesn’t really want them around my mom’s current boyfriend(s). But saying that Mommy can’t be trusted and that everything she does has ulterior motives? Come on. How could she be plotting things with hidden motives when she can’t even comprehend things at that level? Neither of us are capable of thinking that a person is doing something with an intent beyond the face value.

On a much more happier subject! Albert and I are doing very well. Albert’s trusting me moreeee and I’m being more opennnn and he’s being pretty positive for October! I’m just really happy that I’ve finally gotten to the point where I can tell him everything. And the trust thing is awesome. Not cause I’m gonna go off being untrustworthy xP It’s because! I don’t have to worry about being wrongly accused. That worry probably made me seem more suspicious xD But yea, I don’t worry about that anymore.

Tis Been a While

So… I haven’t posted for… 10? 11? days. Uhm… Not that much has actually happened since then though. I now drive myself to the other campus, but I miss driving with Tony. Yesterday, I ended up following him. I wish I had him with me to help me park.. cause my parking sucks. Oh yea, I wanted to browse around for parking tips..

My classes are doing okie dokie. I’m kinda slacking in my studying though, so I feel kinda unaccomplished.. so, I ought to stop procrastinating for once and feel more accomplished… easier said than done =D

I haven’t really felt like blogging. Uhm… I wrote my first essay for English and I got it back as an… 89 B, so, I’m gonna try rewriting it, cause we’re allowed to rewrite our essays. Whatever I suppose. I have another one due Monday, but it’s Classification, and I don’t like classification at all. And I have to do research papering… I despise that even more.

Tomorrow I have a test in Programming. Hopefully I own it. Cause I would enjoy that. Next Monday I have a test in Precalc, and I should do better than a C this time. Next Wednesday I have a test too, and it’ll cover 5 chapters! Wooooo!

I am grumpy.